Today I learned that gratitude is more a way of life, than anything else. Our gratitude grows to the extent that we allow it to.
Looking back over my life, I’ve spent a lot of time wishing. Wishing my life were how I could envision it to be. Wishing I could obtain the level of success I felt I deserved. Wishing to be comfortable in my own skin. Wishing to have true friends and a loving relationship. Wishing I could earn more money than I spent. Nothing, absolutely nothing changed, no matter how much I tried to force aspects of my life to be different.
Through a series of events, I was forced to stop wishing and start living. Instead of spending a majority of my day wishing and fantasizing, I had to start living moment to moment. It was either that or completely destroy myself. It got that bad.
Little by little (and I mean that literally, a crumb at a time), I started to look at what was, rather than how I wanted everything to be. I started to notice more about who I was and who the people around me were. I started to recognize the fact that all my necessities were being met, regardless of my mindset at the time, telling me I would fail. Over the matter of seven years I grew to know myself very, very well. Life stopped being something to resent and became a blessing.
I woke up this morning and my first thought was that I’ve been the parent I’ve looked up to others for being through my sons entire teenage life. I no longer have to wake up regretting my actions of yesterday. Life isn’t something to be done through short cuts, scheming and scamming. Today, I enjoy who I am and this allows me to enjoy others more. I don’t have to resent, be jealous or envious of others. Because I’ve learned to be proud of who I am, I can be more proud of the people in my life that I love.
Today, I have the best job I’ve ever had. I’m not a big shot and don’t have a fancy title, but I’m pretty successful at what I do and doing my job to the best of my ability adds to me gratitude. I have friends that I would drop everything for in a moments notice and believe they would do the same for me.
Owning Our Creatorship means we can dislike a persons actions without throwing the person out of my life. We can enjoy the material things in my life, knowing we can be just as grateful about life without them. The owning comes in when life is lived for the experiences. Someone I really look up to says it best, whenever he says “life is about building memories”.
If anyone reads this and doesn’t feel this awesome excitement about life, please reach out to me. If not me, please reach out to someone. LIFE IS NOT MEANT to be miserable. I would love nothing better than an opportunity to share what’s been shared with me. I talk in terms of Owning Our Creatorship as my movement. But at the bottom of it all, it’s the sharing with others that increases happiness and gratitude in our lives!